Distance from the event didn't, exactly, make things easier to bear, but it did make the day to day easier to tolerate. Three months on, and Kavinsky was feeling a little bit more like he could breathe. The studio continued on, he kept going to the club, and his life was, for all intents and purposes, a mechanical repetition of life.
Tonight was a slow one, but that was alright. It was just noisy and lively enough that he could stop feeling for a second, and that was good enough for him. While they were between songs, he sat in the back, incapable of working up the energy to people please and far too worried that he'd end up lashing out instead. He had his eyes on Alex up on the stage at the moment, just at the doorway to the back room. There was a group of youngish guys in front of her, probably about their age or just a little bit older, all egging each other one.
He strode out, taking to the stage. Alex's music was winding down, and the next song was queuing up, so Kavinsky just slotted in against her. The young men just sort of stared for a second, seeming startled that Kavinsky was there. So he winked at them, and said against Alex's ear, "Last song, beautiful. Let's make it worth while."
Tonight was a slow one, but that was alright. It was just noisy and lively enough that he could stop feeling for a second, and that was good enough for him. While they were between songs, he sat in the back, incapable of working up the energy to people please and far too worried that he'd end up lashing out instead. He had his eyes on Alex up on the stage at the moment, just at the doorway to the back room. There was a group of youngish guys in front of her, probably about their age or just a little bit older, all egging each other one.
He strode out, taking to the stage. Alex's music was winding down, and the next song was queuing up, so Kavinsky just slotted in against her. The young men just sort of stared for a second, seeming startled that Kavinsky was there. So he winked at them, and said against Alex's ear, "Last song, beautiful. Let's make it worth while."